We were told/warned that the 4 to 6 week period after a death is probably the worst part and they could be right though it’s all pretty awful to be honest. The time when the quiet descends, the funeral is past, all the paperwork has been signed, all the meeting with his friends and old family is over, everyone goes back to being normal. Our world wont’t ever be the same but it will be different and we will learn to adjust. We still have the dogs needing our attention and I still have my creativity, thank goodness. I’ve started to venture out. First meetings are hard as the condolences are said. Just that one word condolence can set me off. Second meetings are easier for me and those who don’t know quite what to say. Cleaning of the house has been done for the first time in weeks. Food is starting to be properly prepared and eaten. Thoughts turn to adjusting without Chris.
Elsa found a great piece on the Box and the Ball of Grief analogy by Lauren Herschel and it totally sums it up. Some days the ball is huge and I don’t want to face anything, then it shrinks a little and life can sneak back in. HERE is an online version of it, though there are plenty out there saying the same thing.
On the creative front I have finished 20 of the scrappy 10.5 inch squares. I have to find some sashing and I think it will come out about 48” x 64” ish. Quite a generous lap quilt size. Nice for a snuggle under. This has reduced the two boxes to just under one. I have more plans for the scraps though so will work on it.
I’ve completed two more Hussif rolls and stitched the main body of four more. I’ve started to think towards the possibility of perhaps doing the open studios in 2024. The last one I did in 2018 was held at the church but I think I’d like to do it from home again. These sort of things are often liked as gifts so having a few done will be good. I also thinking of perhaps selling them from here or my long unused Etsy! There’s also a little needle book I’ve made but not so sure of that.
Something else I have lots of is glass from years back. I’ve had a bit of a play but my soldering is appalling and well out of practise! These hearts need a lot of re soldering and cleaning up before I can putty and finish them. I have drawn up a few more shapes I’d like to try at some point and I have also found my vitreous paints so perhaps I can add a bit of ‘other’ to some bits too.
In the yarn department for evenings I have started the Domino Blanket by Knit One Kits I bought at the Southern Wool Show when I went with Tracy in September. It’s not as complicated as it looks and made with the lovely Sidar Jewelspun in shade Nordic Noir.
Also a Stylecraft 9966 Granny Motif cardigan in my own shades of Recreate yarn in Charcoal, Ink, Teal and Avocado.
And lastly the Stargazer blanket by Emma Varnam which I’m making for the GSP Rescue Uk. The half square pattern was not making sense to me no matter what way up I looked at the instructions but luckily Emma has done a YouTube of the diagonals. It’s either me really reading it wrong or what she says and does bears no resemblance to what it written. I class myself as an experienced and advanced crocheter and was totally bamboozled. How these things pass testing I sometimes wonder. Anyway, it’s a lovely looking blanket and growing quite well.
In the Dog House world we are gearing up for Secret SantaPaws! Gwyn’s first of course, she’s very excited. The family I am sending to have a dog called Raven and she has a few issues as she is older. I couldn’t find anything special for her so I made her her own dog toy out of some really firm fabric I was given. I wouldn’t like to say what it is but it doesn’t fray but isn’t felt, it’s like a serge if anything, and did a great job. Of course it’s very hard to photograph as it’s black but it is life size and I was a bit reluctant to let it go! One of those things that made itself with no pattern, but I may try to make another one day. Proper legs would have been too complicated and it’s only a dog toy! (Though my OCDself did itch to make some!).
Miss Willy has had her leg brace fitted for her Achilles tear. It’s a bit of a faff but if it keeps the operation option away we’re working with it! She is also responding well to the shockwave therapy she is having so we’re keeping everything crossed.
It has also been that time of year again where we sort and send out the rescue cards and calendars. Despite there being a worrying delay on the calendars themselves we had a mad few days and several bags at a time left home with Gwyn’s seal of approval.
We are still here, we are still functioning and we are still grateful for all the messages and comments. Thank you for reading this far. X