On Wednesday 5th October my son went missing. We sadly found him on Friday 7th, he had decided to take his own life. At this moment I time I am in the numb/angry/hollow/questioning stage. I have found this so difficult to come to terms with.

I wasn’t going to post anything here but then this is a little slice of my life and something Chris used to read and then call to chat to me about. He was my greatest ‘fan’ and always turned up when I had things showing somewhere. He had his own spot at my desk in the studio where he would fiddle with bits or draw endlessly. He was as much a creative as I was and since he was little made things out of anything he could. He may have departed from this mortal plain but he is all around me in so many things in this house and certainly in my being.

We have the funeral this Friday which is going to be a struggle but an amazing celebration of his life. I have had so many messages and cards from people who’s lives he touched in such a positive way. He struggled daily with his Bipolar but gave so much love and attention to those around him. He just forgot to give some to himself. In his memory we have opened a JustGiving page to raise funds for the local Surf Life Saving club, he lived for the sea and has already made over £2000 for them.

He will live on in so many ways. Hug those you love a little tighter. Xxx

30 thoughts on “News

  1. I can’t think if adequate words to say anything that will help you right now. Virtual hugs to you, family and friends on Friday as you gather to share memories and celebrate his life.

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  2. I was so sad to read this. Losing a loved one is never easy but the suicide of a young person seems especially difficult. I will be thinking of you on Friday and as you come to terms with what has happened.

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  3. I have no words that will help you, but I’m so very sad to read this and am thinking of you and your family at this very difficult time x

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  4. Oh my goodness Amanda, words cannot possibly express my sadness at your tragic news. I can’t begin to understand the huge emotional toil this will have caused, and will continue to affect you over the coming months.
    Much love and sincere condolences. Di Wells xxxx

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  5. My deepest sympathies to you and yours. Mental illnesses are so utterly brutal, for all concerned, not just the sufferer. I’m sure you know your online friends are holding you in their hearts, but I hope you have lots of loving friends nearby to hold you in their arms.

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  6. I am so, so very sorry to hear this and thank you for taking the time to share it. Words are of so little use in the face of such awful news but sending all my love and strength to you and the family. Take care. xxx

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